Karsten has recently decided that breathing is optional. Mom and Dad don't really like the decision he has made, we really prefer that he just keeps breathing. His nurses and doctors tell us that it is something that all preemies do at some point. His "honeymoon" period is over and now the ups and downs begin.
I will never get used to the constant beeping. My heart sinks each time as I watch the numbers dip down. Even when they tell me it's normal, it will never be my normal. As I rub his back to get him to take a breath I say a silent prayer each time that he will have the strength to breathe. One of his doctors told me that he's not supposed to be breathing right now because he should still be in utero. He was supposed to still be there for 12 more weeks, 3 months. I have to remind myself that now and again because it helps put his struggles into perspective.
He's a fighter, we already know this. But as his Mommy, I have to remind myself not to worry when I hear each beep or ding. I need to be strong for him and have faith that everything will be okay. He will get past this "breathing is optional" phase. His lungs will continue to grow and he will continue to fight.
We love you Karsten James Scott, keep on breathing!
Daddy is the best breathing coach.
Here is a little snippet of his breathing lesson.
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