Fifty Never Looked So Good

Fifty! 50! Fifty days and nights. Fifty days old! I could have never imagined so much  could happen in fifty days! We have had fifty days of running to and from the hospital, pumping every two hours, doctor meetings every morning at 9:00am, learning how to care for a preemie, learning medical terminology and procedures, ultrasounds, eye exams, breathing tubes, feeding tubes, probes, scrubbing in for 3 minutes before entering his room, and so much more. It has been amazing and exhausting. I have prayed and cried more in these 50 days than ever before. It has been a trial, but one I would never do without. 

I have realized that those 50 extra days in the womb are pretty important. It's been amazing to watch Karsten grow and hit all of his milestones on the outside, but without a doubt, I would have wanted him to do it in utero. It's amazing what every day can do and how important each little day is.

These fifty days have led to so many great things. Ryan and I have found a new love. A greater love and understanding of one another as parents. These days and nights, as hard as they are, are so sweet and precious at the same time. We are so thankful for these 50 days with our little love, for the things we have learned and for the memories we have made.